Hi all

Its been about a week since i wrote. But this one week seems like a year to me as many things had happened.

One of which was i was given a chance to be MCee for my gf cousin's wedding. Well, i had been given public speaking to people before, but never a wedding event. To make the matter interesting, i was notify with 60 hrs remaining.

The wedding commence on Sat. I did my homework, get script and memorize them. Of course im not perfect, i forgotten some words here and there but i managed to pull through. It was full house. I cant remember how i went through it but the only thought in my mind is to make this wedding as perfect as possible. If anyone has such tasks again, im willing to try again and i know i can do better.

The very next day, i try to recall the previous night wedding. As i do that, i remember what Dr George told me a few days ago.

We met at his golf course somewhere at East Coast. He has been very patient and give me a lot of help to pull me up. I was having a low morale for the past 1 year plus and he is the first person to be able to break my obstacle.

George told me 1 example on that day which impact me a lot. He says he has not been golfing for a long long time. Although the touch might not be the same, but the skill is there. And he has fear of hitting the ball as he has not hit it for quite sometimes.

This struck me. I had not play soccer for quite sometimes but if im given a ball, i can still do the basic juggling. Its the same with public speaking. Although i had not speak in public for quite some time, i realise my foundation was there.

This is what i have learn.
1) Believe in yourself. You had done it before so you can do it again.
2) I had fear. But does the fear kills me? The best way to fight fear is to face it.
3) The foundation is very important. That is why we attended nursery, primary school..etc. You can still remember 1+1 =2 dont you?
4) Hatred is our enemy. I had lost a lot of people who had loved me before and i regretted that i came to know hatred. Im deeply sorry for that.
5) The most important and most powerful thing in life is LOVE. Love the people, the things, and even love those that you think dont deserve your love because they lack of love as well.

I love you.

Luv*
Justin